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what the world thinks eating disorders are : simply not eating, or eating then throwing up your food.
what pro ana/mia’s think eating disorders are like : Following da thin commandments!!!!! embracing ana, it’s just a lifestyle, cake or collarbones????
what eating disorders are actually like : extreme self hatred, thinking about food 24/7, battling whether to eat for hours on end, sleepless nights, eating so much that your skin expands, failure, pooping to the point where your rear is raw, paranoia, isolation, bingeing purging, bingeing purging, throwing up so much that your nuckles are raw and bleeding, exercising and your whole body aches, shaking, being cold all the time, body aches, bloating, lying to everyone, constantly hungry and constantly denying everything good, crying at your reflection, and hating every inch of yourself.
Binging & Purging 6 times back to back then laying on the bathroom floor because your in so much pain you can’t even walk to your bed.
Just a list of things I personally associate with Eating disorders and thinspo/bonespo pictures I’ve seen. I want to become such aesthetics.
Add yours on.
Just ate 430 calories in two breakfast bars and a protein bar after a 44 hour fast. I hate myself, I wanted to wait longer but I was so dizzy and tired. I look so bloated now, I hate myself
I hate when my period comes because it means I’m a failure and also I’ll binge and I fucking hate myself I think I’ve gained like 10 pounds in 3 days and I’m so fat and ugly and I can’t do this much longer I’m losing my goddamn mind
I just binged on food I don’t even like just because I completely lost control. I hate myself.
Just made it through a 48 hour fast for the first time. I will be skinny for Christmas
Because I’m a lil tired of the typical “I want a guy to notice me”… I just want something real
When you’re thin:
~you will feel your shoulder blades trying to slice through your back like bony little wings
~your under eye circles will become magnificent, like watercolour pools showing your dedication to this skinny hell
~your waist will be so tiny, everyone will have to wrap their arms around up to the elbows to hug you
~your bony knees knock together when you sit in your seat in the classroom, it’s a little uncomfortable but your thighs are so far apart it’s like they’re estranged sisters at thanksgiving dinner
~you’re so lightheaded, that you see stars all the time- your world has turned into a fucked up planetarium
~those collar bones don’t just “hold water”- they cut glass. They are clavicles some people would die for
~the boniness of your fingers feel so good clasped in the hand of another, like a string of pearls wrapped in silk
~you stay home instead of eating out with your friends- it’s bittersweet. You draw pictures of food instead, you work out, or drink tea.
~people will be a little scared or worried around you. You won’t mean to- but your body is too fluttery for them not to feel a little unnerved
💫thinspo imagines💫
Skinny skinny skinny skinny skinny skinny skinny skinny skinny skinny skinny skinny skinny skinny skinny skinny skinny skinny skinny skinny skinny skinny skinny skinny skinny skinny skinny skinny skinny skinny
Me: *looks up thinspo*
Tumblr: is everything okay?
Me: nope…
Me: scrolls down to thinspo
I in no way promote eating disorders, this is for my own use, my own mentality, and those of us who are too far gone. If you think you have an eating disorder please go to a professional about it..